Interconnection & Empathy

Human beings are interconnected spiritually, emotionally, mentally, even physically. Everyone remembers this occasionally, with a little shock of recognition. Take breathing, for example. What could seem more personal than our breath? Yet humans all over the world share your air. As songwriter Tom Chapin sings about recycling, ‘Someone’s going to use it after you. Someone’s gonna need it when you’re through.’ Our physical swapping doesn’t stop with the nostril stuff, either. It’s mind boggling to realize that Planet Earth uses, and always has used, the same water supply. Dinosaurs drank from pools that, many water cycles later, have filled up bottles at your local convenience store, bottles that bear that mystical label Coca-Cola. In fine print those labels should read, ‘Recycled over eons from mountain lakes, jungles, and city sewers; distilled from the sweat, blood, and tears of every race that has lived on this earth.’

– Rose Rosetree, Empowered by Empathy: 25 Ways to Fly in Spirit

Imagine what it is like, then, for someone very empathic. Imagine how swapping the air with other human beings, feeling their energy acutely, and tasting the water that contains eons of many different life forms could make someone extremely sensitive feel completely overwhelmed.

That is how I have felt most of my life. When I was an adolescent — maybe 10 or 12 — my mother said to me: “What a gift it is that you are so sensitive, Courtney, and yet I am so sorry that your sensitivity makes life so hard for you.” I remember being entirely understood in that moment. My mother’s words blanketed me with assurance that I was not crazy; in fact, her words indicated that I had a gift. At the time, I pictured a strange package set out before me: a beautiful gold box with a silver bow. Inside, though, contained my worry over the puppies in the pound, apartheid, and the Holocaust (for some reason, those were my “big three”). I also held in that gift box my worry over falling off the balance beam during my routine, my concern for the girl down the street who had cancer, and anger at my peers who made fun of gay people.

No, life was not easy for me. I watched Sophie’s Choice and Dry White Season. I read Virginia Woolf and thought about the importance of a room of my own. I spent many Friday evenings as a teenager watching Hitchcock movies instead of going to parties. I rarely raised my hand in class for fear of hearing my own voice, and my struggle with speaking in front of others worried me for years.

Later I discovered that some of my feelings (and even bodily sensations) were not entirely my own. I picked up on others’ emotions, felt others’ pain, and even sometimes knew what someone was thinking before they spoke a word. Sometimes I would even pick up stomach aches, headaches, and even hangovers from others. On a subconscious level, perhaps I was trying to be Mother Theresa of the empath world: I was trying to take others’ suffering away.

As Rosetree writes, “Unskilled empaths suffer.” Yes, indeed. This became clear to me the year my father was sick with kidney cancer. My left kidney area often ached. I felt nauseated a lot. And on the day my dad had the worst time keeping anything down, I threw up later that night. Ultimately, I feel I took on my father’s fears and pain, and as a result I began having panic attacks.

Empathy doesn’t have to be this painful. It took me 33 years of my life to realize that not only was I empathic (and not “damaged” in some way), but to see that I was not skilled in managing my empathy. I am now learning how to “turn down the volume” of my empathy. I liken this to the tuning that acupuncturists do with the needles. They can increase the intensity or lower it by twisting the needles. Often times I turn up the volume of my empathy when I am giving my massage and energy work sessions so I can tune into my clients fully. When they leave my space, I turn the volume back down and create an energetic boundary, which reminds me that I am me and my client is my client. I break the energetic connection we just had so that I can feel what I feel in my body and in my heart and know that it belongs to me. Sometimes I breathe a little matra: “I breathe in Courtney, I breathe out who I am not. I am me.”

My mother was right: my empathy is a gift. But it is a gift I must fine tune so I don’t feel so much internally-driven pain. If you find yourself experiencing stress due to over-empathizing with others, try that breathing technique I mention above:

Breath in: I am [your name]

Breathe out: I am not anyone else.

Breathe in: I am me.

Repeat several times until you feel calmer and more centered in yourself.

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About Courtney Putnam

I first came to healing work through art and writing. Creating collage art and poetry in particular allowed me to deeply understand the benefit of self-expression in the healing process. But, I also began to see the benefit of bodywork (manual work in the form of massage and energywork in the form of Reiki) as keys to unlocking the emotional stresses we hold in our bodies. I became a Reiki practitioner in 2002, received an MFA in Creative Writing in 2003, received my massage license in the spring of 2006, and became a Reiki Master in 2010. In my practice I bring together these three areas -- the body, the mind, and the spirit (or energy body) -- so others may experience profound and positive change in their lives.
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4 Responses to Interconnection & Empathy

  1. Jenna says:

    love this!

    and I have been working with my student clients on this, as they work on boundaries. I get the privilege of also working on boundaries…and not trying to be Mother Teresa of the empath world (though by maybe having boundareis, we free ourselves up to be more effective in the long run?)

    I wonder if the “shaking off that which is not needed” at the end of the massage can serve you as well as me. You can shake off anything I’ve left behind and return to yourself. 🙂

  2. Sherry says:

    I liked your breating technique. Sometimes during a focused-breathing meditaiton i will say “I am” on the inhalation and “God is” on the exhalation. This raises my awareness of the oneness I call God. Thanks for the wonderful post. I just wrote a post on Hands-on Healing and would love your feedback. I also wrote about compassion which is similar to your beliefs on empathy.
    Namaste, Sherry

  3. Anonymous says:

    I am an empath. I got my gift by a connection. Myself and an empath are interconnected. We watch out for each other. He is an empath of about a year. I am for less than that. I am very quickly changing into a full empath, but only because of our connection. I don’t understand most of this but, little by little, I am learning.
    Thank You for writing this

  4. Thank you for sharing your experiences, everyone. It is a challenge to be empathic, but also such a tremendous gift. May we all find the balance we need as we connect emotionally with others.

    xo,
    Courtney

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